A friend of mine gave me book for my birthday called Drawing Near by John Bevere. I haven't read all of it yet but its about having a life of intimacy with God. As i've been reading it i haven't been able to get over Chapter 3. It challenges me and really speaks to my heart.
Protect your hunger the Chapter is called and it starts off with a baffling question: Why do so many believers have a shallow relationship with God? Why don't they delve into a deeper more consistent relationship with Him? What holds them back? What would ignite and cause them to respond to His call to draw near? The answer is not complex : John says its our hunger and thirst to know Him, we are the ones who determine our hunger for God.
Today in the world we have an abundance of material possessions, entertainment, pleasure and wealth but the only way we can create and maintain a hunger for God is to protect our soul by choosing what we fill it with because if our soul is filled with all these cares, pleasures, riches and desires of this world then we will be fill and despise the sweet honeycomb of Gods fellowship.
I'm going to admit that so often in my walk with Jesus i ask Him to draw near to me, to increase my hunger for Him but i don't do much in my effort to draw close to Him and give Him the love and recognition He deserves. In fact when i read those opening questions about having a shallow and non-consistent relationship with Him, i think of me and how often the voice of my inner-man becomes quieter as time goes on. As John puts it: Our spirit is weakened and our flesh becomes more dominant.
See, i don't want to live like this! My hearts desire is to have a close relationship with God, i want a hunger for His presence but whats holding me back? And i don't want to just say all this and not follow it through. I really want to create a healthy habit of connecting with God but how do i do it without falling into this trap of allowing my busy christian lifestyle to replace/get in the way of my time with God.